I'll Praise the One Who's Chosen Me to Carry You

There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?

People say that I am brave but I'm not
Truth is I'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this

So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen me
To carry you
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Tyler,
I'm so sorry I haven't written here in awhile, but I know that you know that I think about you every second of every day. Mommy will never know why you can't be here with us but I do know that I will see and hold you again in Heaven.

Christmas was so hard for us. Mommy held your little Christmas outfit and cried, I so wanted to dress you up in it and take pictures of you and daddy by our Christmas tree. I hope that you were wearing your outfit up in Heaven. I can't even imagine the celebration that you had up in Heaven with Jesus. I can't wait to celebrate Christmas with you in Heaven.

Please watch over daddy sweet little boy. He misses you so so much and he has taken on so much to help mommy. Send him a sign that you are thinking of him. You really are daddy's little twin.

Don't worry little one when mommy cries it just because I love you so much. It hurts that people here on earth don't see me as being a mommy. I will always be your mommy and I will always carry you with me.

I love you sweet boy and I'm sending you a kiss to Heaven right now.

Love,
your Mommy