Our Greatest Joy Was Having You

Baby Tyler,

Mommy misses you so very much! I wish I could kiss your sweet forehead and watch you as you sleep. Now, I know that you kiss my forehead and watch me sleep at night. Mommy is trying not to be so sad but I miss my baby boy so much. People tell me it will get better, but I know I will always miss my sweet baby boy. I can't wait till I get to hold you in heaven.

I love you forever.
I like you for always.
Forever and always, my baby you'll be.

Grandma came to visit you today. She said that your sunflowers are so bright. Mommy knew that you were a sunflower baby. It's amazing cause I see sunflowers on the side of the road and it makes me smile to think of you in heaven. You are such a beautiful baby boy! You bring mommy and daddy so much joy, we just wish we could see you laugh and smile. I know that you are smiling in heaven.

Macy misses her bubba very much. She often lays on my tummy and I know she is thinking of you. Daddy took her for a walk today and she was very excited. Hopefully mommy won't be sick for very much longer and she can take Macy to visit the dog park.

Tyler, you'll always be our special baby boy and mommy can't wait to be with you in heaven one day. I know you'll run into my arms and whisper mommy into my ear. I wish you could be here with Daddy, Macy, and me but God had other plans for our baby boy.

I keep looking at your pictures and wishing I could hold you again. I know that day will come but it won't be soon enough. I love you, Tyler and you'll always be mommy's sweet angel baby boy.

Until we meet in heaven. Love always, your Mommy.

There Will Be a Day

Ryan and I just got back home from seeing family this weekend. It's great to be surrounded by such love and support, but it makes coming back to Houston even harder. Tomorrow is Ryan's first day back at work and tomorrow is the start of me being at home by myself. Honestly, I'm scared to be alone but I think it will be good for me. I've been overworking myself and it will be good to rest. Plus it will give me a chance to write some thank you notes and finish the books that I have started.

It's so difficult to be 34 weeks pregnant and then all of sudden you aren't and you don't have a baby to hold and take care of. My body still thinks there is a baby and I'm going through all the symptoms that a normal postpartum mom encounters. It hurts physically and mentally and makes me miss Tyler even more.

I finished his ultrasound photo album and I carry it with me everywhere. It has all the photos that we have of him and it helps to look at them. They make me smile because it makes me think of all the wonderful active times when he was in my tummy.

I talk to Tyler often and it helps to know that he can hear me, I just hope that he knows that I love him more then anything. I just wish I could hold him and kiss him again.

My faith keeps me going and I have to keep the faith for Tyler. That way I know that I will see him again one day and I know that he will run up to me as I come up to the gate.

I keep saying the lyrics to this Jeremy Camp song over and over again. It helps me and gives me something to look forward too.

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face

There will be a day, He’ll wipe away the stains, He’ll wipe away the tears, He’ll wipe away the tears…..there will be a day.

In Loving Memory of Tyler Evan Chambers

When we found out I was pregnant,
We were so filled with joy,
Our gift from God,
Our sweet little boy.

I felt you grow and move around,
Little kicks of love,
Felt like heaven above.

We got to hold you once,
And for that we'll always treasure,
Your pretty little face,
Brought us so much pleasure.

You are now our little angel,
In God's loving arms,
Where you will be safe and sound,
And nothing can do you harm.

Our love will grow stronger,
Everyday as we go on,
You will be our son forever,
As precious and innocent as ever.